Day One: Wanting

"Every day is a flower before thee."

Today sort of ran away on its own, and yet I sensed you were there anyway.
It's what I needed to do, but not what I wanted. I know you are still there
even when my heart is divided like this. Someone said I am not talking to
you nearly as much as I should. Others have also told me this also.

I think they may be right. I do feel you in the little things that happen
during the day. Today, I think I saw the joy on my mom's face as she saw
the cats and wondered why we neglect all the little joys that come along.

Then I wondered at the sacrifice my family made for me today, taking me to places
I found it difficult to visit. Then they took me out for lunch. That was a little bit of time, but I felt that you made it right.

The cat wanted to sit on my lap twice also tonight.. Now it is waiting for me to finish posting. He is such a patient waiter. Yet I know that you are even more patient. The cats do teach me about patience and maintaining serenity.

My friend brought me chocolate cake also. He is thoughtful.

So I find you in all the small things that pass by unnoticed.

I forget to thank you daily. While I am thinking of other things...

I think I can say things to you plainly now. My heart melts when I think about the devotional time I have not practiced near to you.

I still know you will forgive me, like you did in the past.
I am not trying to take advantage of it even though it feels like I do.

I am too afraid we will get close too soon as before. My heart is waiting and yet denying this wanting within me.

May they above speak for me, and the ones by my side, also, when I have no words before you.


"Every day rises before you and retires into your arms in the even."

Blessed be you.